yes, you had to ask.

how do i find myself
in the places i get to,
it's times like this
i wish i was a 1-800 number,
then i might have all the answers.

today your questions
are too complicated,
if only i wasn't on so much medication,
i could hear you out,
at least nod my head,
fake a reply.

you once said
i would never be the same
without you.

now i know you, i
know my options.
i'm not a toll free phone number,
but i don't need someone
i don't know to tell me the answers.

this is the only place i know.

if i had something to offer,
my head on a plate,
if i suffered more for you,
i would change your life,
give you something different
to live for,
maybe think about.

you see what you've had to do to me?